Sunday~ Currently, I am feeling exhausted. I have been trying desperately to complete my schoolwork since morning. I can't believe that I can complete my Chemistry worksheet without a single glance at the reference that I have(: Most probably, I will be making use of my holidays to focus on my studies, especially on my Mathematics and Science. That's all for now! :D

Saturday~ It is supposingly the day which I should have slept in, but it turned out that I have to wake up even earlier >.< I went to tuition at 7.30am, miraclely, Shirley`boyfriend and Zhining`sweetie were earlier than me. OMG, those two lazy piglets woke up earlier than me! Ms Chong's lesson is enjoyable as usual. The milo that she brewed is scalding my throat. Later, went to meet Weiting and Wanyi at 7-eleven. All of us reached Ashlea's house at around 12.00pm. The spaghetti is delicious and tasty! I love sausages <333 After the entire project, I went to Jurong Point with Annabelle to buy presents. I am such a spendthrift >.< It is Remi's birthday, I bought her a personalized handphone strap(: I went to dinner with Annabelle and her family at Pizza Hut. Watching her eat is one of the most enjoyable pastime which I should consider to take on. Thanks Annabelle, Aunty and Uncle for the wonderful dinner! They went home at 8+ after purchasing Pebble's foodstuff. I went to search for mum in JP. Also, a special thanks to mummy for buying me Final Fantasy X-2 and Memoirs of a Geisha! :D Homed at 11.00pm.

Friday~ Finally my long awaited weekend is here~! I am just feeling extremely exhausted now, as my mind is desperately ordering my eyes to close >.< I do hope that I will be able to finish my assignments on time. Rehearsal is kind of successful for today, I know that we will be able to do much better on the actual day of performance (: I am sure that it will be a success if everyone remain united. Teacher's day celebration is next monday, I wonder if my primary school buddies will be going? I am looking forward to see my sweetie, boyfriend and many others :D I do hope that I will be able to go out with my secondary school gans after school too. Hmmm, I wonder if I am allowed to go... I will be having a project meeting tomorrow, it is sure a busy week for me. Nevertheless, have a happy weekend!

Thursday~ I am really tired... OMG! My homeworks are still not done >.< I am so dead. Lets pray and hope that Monday's event will be a success (: Everything is still going on... However, I think I am the only one who couldn't catch up, cause I am seriously exhausted.

Wednesday~ Thousands of worries and troubles continued to shadow my being. How will things ever be the same again..? I simply have no idea! Homeworks and assignments are still chasing behind me, I still have four assignments not completed today, there's still rehearsal tomorrow!! OMG, I need extended time >.< Instead of doing my homework, sleep just came into my mind. My fingers are still aching from writing the 1000+ words chinese essay. I am still in love with Mango Ice-blended <333! With the amount of junk food that I have been eating everyday, I am sure to grow fatter x.x I will have to cut down my diet during holidays. I am still confused...

Tuesday~ Today is a fruitful yet tiring day >.< I felt more tired than ever. OMG! I am so dead for not bringing back my physics textbook to study the test tomorrow T.T Hopefully I will not fail the test, I don't wish to see another red mark in my progress report. It is my first time doing backstage helper, now I understand what difficulties that the AVA will have to face. Everything seems to be so rushed. Nevertheless, it is the first time that I will be working with my fellow PMPs. Good luck to Joel, Shaun, Theon, Junrong and Zhiyang for the logistics stuff! Let's hope that everything will be a success on Monday :D

Monday~ Wow, September vacation is just in another two weeks time... I am still buried under piles and tons of homework, I wonder how long would I still need to climb till I reach the submit..? It is the first time that it took me a long time to complete the CLDDS essay. I am seriously deproving. There is only one month left till EOY, would I have enough time to realise my mistakes..? The answer is a definite no. I am lacking of motivation >.< Every day, I will come home hoping to lie on my bed till the morning. How will I have enough time to complete all my tasks? I cannot afford to fail anymore. How I wish that everything will just be able to return back to the beginning, back to where it haven't happen yet... I can't help but to worry for everyone else, especially when trouble and problems are arising. I need some breathing space too. Anyway, I had fun at the void deck in the afternoon practicing the mass dance with Annabelle, Eustacia, Jianshu, Paul, Wanyi, Weijie and Weiting`shifu. I was entirely a crazy girl, I wonder if the residents thought of us as six crazy and hyper councillors from HYSS. Mass dance is easier than 'Chocolate'! It only took me half to one hour to learn all the steps. I am addicted to ice-cream, coke, nuggets and mango ice-blended which is 100% fattening. I finally saw the famous Sharon`xiao-cute which Weikiat is bragging about xD Homed with Eustacia at 5.00pm(:

Sunday~ My day had nothing but a pile of homework waiting for me on the study table... My eyes are seriously tired after completing the history essay >< My mum and dad went out again, leaving me at home facing the wall. At least, I had Weikiat and Annabelle chatting with me on phone. That's all with me and my boring day!

Saturday~ I woke up early for my tuition in the morning. Ms Chong's maths lesson is as enjoyable as usual. After tuition, Shirley, Zhi Ning and I went to Science Centre for lunch. I have a heart-to-heart chat with my buddies in primary school. Lols, I ate too much yesterday in overall. Shirley came to my house just to watch The X-Family. Both of us are laughing like crazy due to the humourous scenes. At night, dad came to fetch mum, 2nd aunt and I to
ABC market in Alexandra Road for dinner. Slept at 2.30am.

Friday~ Wow, finally the last day of the week. I can sleep in during the weekends. I think I am about to fail my art, it took me an hour to come up with nothing. I drew and erase and repeat the whole process over and over again. We were having a English test, I slept after Mrs Firdouse left. D & T is somehow fun..? After school, went to Mama shop with Annabelle, DeBin, Jianshu, Junning, Weikiat and Xinyi. Nuggets and hotdogs are great(although it is 100% fattening)<333 Returned back to school for CCA, sales is postponed to end-of-year. Later, Annabelle, Jianshu, Junning, Xinyi and I went to McDonalds for ice cream and snack treats. I ate a vanilla cone and apple pie. Homed at 5.45pm

Thursday~ My day started off with watching a video about Tornado chasers in the ISH. I found it quite interesting as I did not have the chance to see a real tornado before (even if I saw it, I don't think that I will be here blogging). Later, I went for council meeting at the study area. Yay, we will be going to help out at prom night this year, I will be looking forward to it(: History lesson is fine with me, with a couple of humorous jokes going with it. Sadly, I will have to write a full 2 pages essay for History. In total, I will have to complete three essays, two for CLDDS and one for History. CME lesson was used as music today. PE, I did not play much before going for recess duties. Hahas, interacting with Chee Kian, Rachel and Canna is fun..? At least, I managed to know more about my fellow buddies. Maths was rather engaging, the entire class is excited by the new teaching method invented by Ms Chia. Music again after music. It is the first time that I find chemistry as an interesting lesson, we were learning about Ions and Atoms. I can finally understand part of the concept(: After school, went to lunch with Annabelle, Ashlea, Eustacia, Minhui, Wanyi and Weiting. I enjoyed my ramen, though I admit that it is too big for me. Lols, it is the first time that I heard Annabelle is complaining about her food being too much for her, it is a miracle! xD We went back for CCM after that. Jianshu came in and joined us in our lesson. CME project is almost completed! Yay! I can finally relax a little before I really R.I.S. I was sadden when I was not able to attend the teachers' day rehearsal due to my CCAs and tuition >< I was looking forward to it...

Why am I being so emotional? I am not one who will lose my temper so easily >< Why am I allowing my personal matters to interfere with my emotions? Sorry, Eustacia :( I am truly sorry for losing my temper and walked out of you guys just now. I did not know why... It just feels like all my emotions are going to explode within myself. I did not know why I walked away. Normally, I would just smile and laugh it off. Seriously, all the things in my mind are pissing me off and causing me to be upset... Probably, I just did not want to break down in front of you, so I walked away. I am really sorry Eustacia, sorry for losing my temper at you. Sorry for being such a bad friend to you guys. Please forgive me, it is all my fault. I just don't know everything... I don't even know why am I shutting myself off...T.T

OMG! New Moon Official Trailer 2 is finally out~! :D

Happy 14th birthday, Weiting! Thanks for being such a nice companion to me, even though we knew each other less than a year. I love you <333 Continue to work hard in order to get into your desired stream, I believe you can do it. You are uniquely yourself, your kind and cheerful personality is what that made us attracted to you, hence do not allow others to influence your decision. As you grew older, you are bound to meet more challenges and obstacles, do not give up! Once again, wishing you a happy 14th birthday!

Tuesday~ After school, I had a CLDDS outing to Chinatown. I sat with Fengyi in the bus and was chatting away. Lols, I can't believe that Mdm Ng actually spent nearly $100 just to treat us lunch. I took a lot of pictures, but was lazy to update >< It is the first time that I interact with Li Rui and Yao Yuan, I did not know that they talked so much (: Homed at 5.00pm

Monday~ I am really disappointed with myself for getting such grades for English. I had never failed that subject before >< Where is the enthusiastic Felicia who will always try her best? Where is the one who will always move on despite all her difficulties? Where is the one who is contented when everyone else is happy even if she is not? I want my old self back >< Seriously, I have to work hard if I want to get into my desired stream next year! IKEA learning journey is somehow fun..? Hmmm, sat with Kaiwen in the bus. Sorry, I am a bad partner for you >< I am not use to chatting much in the bus and other places. Sorry that you must entertain yourself while sitting with me >< I was grouped with Annabelle, Ashlea and Weiting (: I think I have to make another trip down to IKEA again due to my blur nature >< Sorry :( Hot dog is nice though, I absolutely love it!

Sunday~ T.T It is Sunday again! How I wish that time could stop for just a little, to allow me to enjoy my weekends. I woke up in the early morning at around 8.30am (which is definitely not early for those light sleepers) to complete my homework since I did nothing but slacking in front of my laptop for the entire Saturday. I left the house at around 10.45am for the CME project meeting with Annabelle, Ashlea, Eustacia, Minhui, Wanyi and Weiting. I turned out to be the first one who reached the destination at 11.15am. In the end, I stood in front of 7-eleven waiting for them patiently with my heavy laptop in my hands. Wanyi and Weiting were the second while Minhui was the third. Ms Belle was late for about half an hour due to her personal reasons (?) We went to Minhui's house after Annabelle arrived since Eustacia and Ashlea were having church service. During lunch time, Minhui and Weiting became our chef in order to have more practices for their Home Economics exam. The five of us kept snatching sushi rolls from each other, as it is simply too mouthwatering. Later, we went to fetch Eustacia and Ashlea before going to McDonalds for a snack treat. I am so in love with ice-cream <3333 Later, we continued our project till the evening. As Annabelle, Ashlea, Minhui, Wanyi and I were on our way to Jurong Point for dinner, we experienced a heavy downpour which caused us to be drenched from head to toe. Minhui left soon after purchasing her sushi. We walked around in search for our dinner before we settled on Long John Silvers, which Ashlea commented that it is fattening. Lols, she is starting to become like me >< Anyway, I never ate so much before. We became a typical chiongster as we walked round and round in the basement to complete Annabelle's shopping list. I treated it as an after-meal exercise in order to burn away the fats and calories that I consumed. My laptop is seriously heavy! Homed at 10.00pm

Friday~ Finally the end of the week >< Well, today started off with Art, I found it rather interesting other than my shading skills are horrible. English, Mrs Firdouse was explaining to us about our critical reflection. I think I did quite a bad job though. Maths, I am so definitely going to fail my class test >< I was even late for my recess duties due to that particular paper which caused my brain cells to die. D & T, I thought that I would definitely fail my test, but miraclely I passed with flying colours..? Hahas, anyway I am contented with my results, maybe I can do better next time. After school, went to Mama shop with Annabelle, De Bin, Jianming, Jianshu, Junning and Weikiat. Lols, Annabelle is violent! :O I ate nuggets and drank a can of peach aloe. CCA is ok today, having SP! workshop. Jianshu, Weikiat, Junning and I went to McDonalds for a snack treat after CCA. Before going home, I saw Kelly and Wanyi! Followed Jianshu to Junning's house to collect his long awaited Funshine carebear. While surfing the net, I discovered a New Moon fanmade trailer as well as a teaser trailer! :D I can't wait for it to be in theaters >< But it is still a long way to December T.T Anyway, catch Bella and Edward's moment in Volterra in the trailer below! It is simply amazing, with all those sneak peeks of Volterra, Cliff-jumping etc.


New Moon fanmade Trailer


New Moon Teaser Trailer

Thursday~ Day started off normally? Hmmm, at least I did not fall asleep in class, or do I? I can't remember >< History is making me to drift off to lala land though, but I managed to resist the temptation. CME, we started folding paper roses, I should have brought my scotchtape with me, it would have make my life much more easier. We took our height and weight during PE lesson. Lols, instead of growing horizontally I grew vertically T.T I did not grow any taller at all, still stuck at the same height of 164 cm and managed to put on 0.6kg..? Since I am around 42.9kg during mid-year. Yes, finally there is a course for Entrepreneur Club tomorrow! I hope that it would be an interesting one. I think I might fail maths if the paper is seriously making me dizzy... Haix, I better buck up! We continued folding roses during music lesson. Congrats to me, I had officially failed my NAPFA test with the terrible stamina of mine! It is nothing to be happy about though >< I failed everything except for sit-and-reach and inclined pull-up. I will have to go for a retest again... After everything, went to JP with Jianshu and Belle... We ate our dinner then went home >< And that's the end of my "wonderful" day!

I seriously don't know how do I feel, I am just being over sensitive? Sorry everyone, please forgive this weak side of mine T.T

Monday~ It is the last day of National Day holiday 09 T.T Dad and mum went out seperately leaving me at home alone >< Feeling totally bored until Wei Kiat and YingYing asked me out to Jurong Point. Yingying and I were late though, I felt guilty for making Wei Kiat to wait for us both at Boon Lay Interchange. After that, went to XCraft to collect his engraving. Then, we went to McDonalds for a ice-cream treat. Hahas, I ate two ice-cream in a day >< 100% will grow fat sooner or later since I cannot resist the temptation T.T We went to Popular together in search for Wei Kiat's assessment books. That was when my dad called to ask me down to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner T.T Reached there at around 5.30pm, ate dinner at Jack's Place with dad and Uncle Soo Chye. Lols, I do not know that Uncle Soo Chye actually had such a big appetite >< I was shocked. Anyway, I settled for a cup of Shirley Temple and Chicken Corden Bleu. While dad and Uncle Soo Chye went for coffee at basement, I went loitering around in the mall. Lols, dad told me that I could use his nets account to buy something I want but not too overboard. Wow, such a nice opportunity for me to purchase tons and piles of books. Just kidding, I ended up buying two video CDs. Homed at 8pm (:

Happy 44th birthday, Singapore!

Saturday~ Finally the long awaited weekend had arrived(: It is my grandma's 83rd birthday! Thanks grandma for taking care of us, watching us to grow. In these years, you had shown care and concern in every aspects of us. Although we had disagreements and quarrels, you are still our beloved elder <3We love you! Also, I am in love with Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy X and Final Fantasy X2. The movie Final Fantasy VII Advent Children totally rocks! I will absolutely rate 5 out of 5 for the animation. Before going to my uncle's house, dad and I went to collect my laptop which I missed terribly these few days from Uncle Rendy. Thanks Aunt Marrisa for a wonderful dinner especially the cute octopus cheese sausage! During the gathering, I had a great time with my cousins: Hui Ling, Wei Ling, Darryl, Sheryl, Marcus and Mervyn. They are totally the best that you could ever ask for. After dinner, I decided not to waste time and proceeded to do my expository writing. Hahas, anyway today is a great day. Nevertheless, wishing Singapore a happy 44th birthday!

Thursday~ Yay, tomorrow is National Day celebration! But sadly, I will still be studying till 12.30pm T.T I am expecting early dismissal though which did not come true. Today just passed by as usual, thank god that biology test was not as difficult as predicted (: I am 100% sure that I will flunk the Australian Maths >< Lets just hope that tomorrow will be a better day. "Learn from yesterday; live for today; hope for tomorrow"

Wednesday~ It is just another ordinary day... I am looking forward to the weekends for my grandma's birthday celebration (: Hahas, I can finally get to see my beloved cousins during the gathering. I am still carving for some vanilla ice-cream. Can anyone recommend some books or songs to me? I am seriously feeling bored.

Am I really that invisible to you..? I kept on wondering if I had done anything wrong. I really don't understand. Things are not meant to be in this way. I felt sorry and apologize if I had offended you guys in some ways. Can you tell me my mistakes? I will amend and accept it. You can do anything to me, but please, just don't ignore me... Stop treating me as if I did not exist at all. I am standing in front of you all. I had accepted if I am just another person in all of your eyes... Did I just put on a facade in front of all of you? I really don't know the real me at all. I can no longer express any emotions. Even if I am angry, neglected or sad, I will just leave it the same way and put on a strong front. I do not know how to ease the pain that I felt. It is not as if I will just break down in front of you. I simply do not know how to cry anymore. I can't scream or shout. I can't do anything. Perhaps, I am just numb. I don't know and I am tired of everything...

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Happy 14th birthday, Jianshu! Finally, you are 14 (: Hahas, hope that you can always remain cheerful and wise forever. You are a good friend, we can always rely on you when there is a need. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to me <3 Lols, anyway wishing you a happy birthday once more taigong xD

Monday~ Start of a new month and a new week. Wow, time passes fast as usual, it is already August. Hahas, I am fit to go to school today, although I did not totally recover from my sickness >< Right now, the sight of some food and medicine repulses me. I almost vomited out everything I ate during weekends. Having normal lesson as usual, except that I almost fell asleep during history. After school, went to take my D & T test as I am having a severe headache on the day of the test. OMG, I think I am going to flunk it >< Which is definitely not a good sign... Haix, I better buck up my studies. Lunch, I settled with a cup of Mango Ice Blended which causes me to have a brainfreeze session. I am all prepared to fail my NAPFA 2.4km running, I did not even have the stamina to run at all. When I returned to class after running, I slept like a dead log for half an hour before leaving the school for McDonalds with Annabelle. Lols, I didn't know that I could eat that much >< A cup of Oreo McFlurry, small fries and a cup of XS coke. Anyway, homed after eating(:

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