Friday~ My day has been nothing but ruined by a splitting headache. I can't post much today, cause my head still hurts like hell T.T Why am I like this? If I get another MC for next week, my studies would be completely messed up... >< Hope that I can get well soon. Hmmmm, nevertheless, if I wasn't in school on next Monday, I should be at home resting if not at hospital (I hope not ><). Lols, anyway the only thing that brighten up my day was that I passed my MATHS!! Hahas, till here then...

Thursday~ Hey people! I am finally back after my long MC :( I have been sick for a total of three days which is definitely not fun at all. I am buried with my piles of homework especially history from pg 18-45 T.T I am half dead... Finally returned to school today, I missed all my lovely cliques, friends and juniors <3 Hahas, thanks for all your concerns and constant reminders these few days, you guys are a bunch of great buddies and listening ears. I love you guys truckloads <33333 Haix, nevertheless, I need a lot of help with my homework T.T Tons and piles of it are waiting for me. Seriously, I need to chiong during the weekends.

Sunday~ OMG, the weekends sure passed by fast. Tomorrow will be the start of the new busy week >< My parents and I went to Malaysia today for a short shopping trip since my mum was complaining that Singapore's shopping malls are boring to her. We left at about 3.45pm and reached Malaysia by 5.00pm. Lols, my dad was about to be broke after my crazy shopping. Thanks daddy, I love you <3333 Wow, it will soon be August, preparing to buy a lot of birthday presents. Firstly, went to Action City for my tofu. But in the end, it was sold out T.T I guessed that I will just have to purchase it from Jurong Point. I ended up buying a bearbrick as Jianshu's additional birthday present (: My next destination is definitely Popular, I simply could not live without books and CDs. Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince, Celebrity Bride and Tsubasa Shunraiki + Detective Conan OST cost me a total of RM90.65 >< After that, I went around Innercity to shop for some clothes and accessories, which I evetually bought a stainless steel ring, I wanted to buy one for Wei Kiat, but I do not know which one he like >< My mum bought me a cardigan since my old one tore off while it was swimming in the washing machine. Before going back, daddy bought me another 2 CDs which cost about RM74.80 In conclusion, I spent about RM210 which in Singapore currency is about $105 and also I am a spendthrift.

Sunday~ OMG, the weekends sure passed by fast. Tomorrow will be the start of the new busy week >< My parents and I went to Malaysia today for a short shopping trip since my mum was complaining that Singapore's shopping malls are boring to her. We left at about 3.45pm and reached Malaysia by 5.00pm. Lols, my dad was about to be broke after my crazy shopping expenditure. Thanks daddy, I love you <3333 Wow, it will soon be August, preparing to buy a lot of birthday presents. Firstly, went to Action City for my tofu. But in the end, it was sold out T.T I guessed that I will just have to purchase it from Jurong Point. I ended up buying a bearbrick as Jianshu's birthday present (: My next destination is definitely Popular, I simply could not live without books and CDs. Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince, Celebrity Bride and Tsubasa Shunraiki + Detective Conan OST cost me a total of RM90.65 >< After that, I went around Innercity to shop for some clothes and accessories, which I evetually bought a stainless steel ring, I wanted to buy one for Wei Kiat, but I do not know which one he likes >< My mum bought me a cardigan since my old one tore off while it was swimming in the washing machine. Before going back, daddy bought me another 2 CDs which cost about RM74.80 In conclusion, I spent about RM210 which in Singapore currency is about $105 and also I am a spendthrift.

Saturday~ My day started with me reading my books on my bed... I am rotting in my house >< I am sort of grounded..? Seriously, I am bored to death. Totally not in mood to do anything, restricted.
I really don't know anything... Feeling lost as I am, I don't even know what is pain. I can no longer stop everything, I do not have anymore strength to deny anything. Am I being too emotional? My mind couldn't generate anything. I don't know who can I trust, I just feel void. I sat by the wall and cried myself, alone... I need an angel to tell me the everything will be fine...

Friday~ Finally, last day of the week... I can relax a little in the weekends. I have been feeling really tired recently, kept sleeping in class whenever there is a chance. Also, congratulations Sec 1 PMPs, you have gone through the first week of duties, continue to work hard and keep up with your enthusiasm (: Good luck and jiayous! After school, went to mama shop with Jun Ning, Jianshu, Wei Kiat, Annabelle and Xinyi. We finally have the first CCA meeting after the long vacation, but however it is a short meeting. Jianshu, Belle and I went to the optician for his contact lenses. He finally got his desired present~ Hahas, went to McDonalds for an ice-cream treat with Wei Kiat, Annabelle and Jianshu. Homed at 4.30pm (:

Wednesday~ We were released earlier today at 1pm due to 'N' level prelim(: By the way, the Sec 1 PMPs had finally gone through their first duty session. Canna, Rachel and Bei Ni did quite a good job considering that it is their first time. Well done girls! Keep up with the enthusiasm (: Take this opportunity to bond with your fellow buddies. I do hope that you girls can be more lively while doing your duty instead of standing there like a lost puppy. But you really did quite a good job though there is still room for improvement. Forgive me for my nagginess and strict attitude while doing duties. Good luck and work hard! I believe that you can do it(: After school, went to Jurong Point with Annabelle, Ashlea, Eustacia, Minhui, Wanyi and Weiting. We went to Pizza Hut for lunch for Annabelle's belated birthday celebration (: Having a great time with my cliques while enjoying our delicious spaghetti. I was the first one to finish everything though xD We bought a cake from Icing Room for Belle. It is also nice and appealing :D This is the first official outing with all six of them..? Hahas, I seriously did enjoy it very well! They went home at around 5+..? Annabelle and I accompanied Eustacia to the library and back again. We went shopping in the entire Jurong Point. I am in serious need for books >< Currently in a bookless situationo once more~ Went dinner with Annabelle and her mum. Seafood steamboat~ Luckily, I did not scald my fingers by being a blur sotong and put them inside the hot pot T.T It is a painful experience... Homed at 9.15pm(:

Wednesday~ >< Feeling really tired today... My eyelids are feeling heavy. Anyway, wishing luck for those sec 1 PMPs for their duties tomorrow, make sure you guys try your best in your probation period(: This is a chance for you to prove yourself as a Student Councillor. I sincerely wish you good luck.

Monday~ It is the first meeting between the PMPs and SCs. Hahas, we were all so hyper! Enjoying my time over there, shouting and screaming like crazy. Finally, I saw my buddies, Rachel and Canna. OMG, they were so cute!! I love them so much :D But I still hope that they can be more enthusiastic and hyper. I am looking foward towards the duties with them(: After meeting, went to Bubble Tea Shop with Hui Min, Hamka, Rosamund, Weijie, Paul and Taoguang. Homed at 6.50pm.

Saturday~ Finally, my long awaited rest days(: Hahas, but not really resting as I still have a pile of homework waiting for me x.x I am falling sick soon... Feeling really feverish >< Haix, I wonder if I could still make to school on Monday. I am really looking forward to a lot of things on that day. First of all, my dad and I went to Jurong Point in the early morning to purchase the tickets for "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince", sadly no seats were avaliable, so we will have to go tonight again for the movie. Thanks daddy for buying "The Host" for me <3333 Yay, another new book to my collection! Just ended the conference with Poh Hsien and Wei Kiat. Lols, Wei Kiat and I turned into chatterboxes with Poh Hsien keeping silent by the side, and two of us talking like crazy, and bickering non-stop~ Overall, I enjoyed talking to them and is looking forward to the next one. When can I ever finish my homework...?

Friday~Congratualations to all Sec 1 PMPs!! Finally, the results that we all have been anticipated for was released(: To those who have been selected, please do make use of your chance wisely. This is an once in a lifetime opportunity for you guys to prove yourself as a leader, and a chance for you to serve the school. I sincerely congrats you for making through the interview. Good luck, hopefully the lucky 20-25 juniors who will pass the PMP will be you. Make sure you perform your duties along with your mentors dutifully. If you didn't make through the second test, just make use of this chance to gain experiences and a life as a SC. Hahas, I look forward in working with all of you (:

Lessons went through as usual. T.T I am book-less once more, despite being equiped with 3 books yesterday, I had completed 2 of it... Wow, this weekend will never be a restful one, with my homeworks piling up >< Happy 14th birthday, Annabelle! Remember that you are no longer 13, and is bound to meet all sorts of challenges and obstacles. It is always good to have experiences. You are uniquely yourself, that is what made us treasure and love you. Do not allow the others to influence your decision. Believe in yourself, trust that you are able to handle the things that are to come. You will always be treasured by us, your friends are by your side. Friends are the ones that you can rely on, we will always be your listening ears if you need us. Lastly, wishing you a happy birthday once more. I love you(:

Wednesday~ The whole day started with a rainy day... The worst is that I did not bring my umbrella with me!! Such a blur sotong am I >< Luckily, Poh Hsien boarded the same bus as me... Thank you my dear sweet junior for sharing an umbrella with me, hope that you aren't as drenched as I am (: Thanks lots! Later, went to Sec 1 classes wanting to pass printed materials to Lingyin, but met her along the paveway, so it saves my time for a trip to 1E2 (: OMG, I can't believe I fell asleep in class, by the time I woke up, Mr Tan had already ended his physics lesson. Haix, next time I have to be more alert. But how can someone blame me for having to sleep at 2.30am at night..? It's my own fault. Lalala, lessons went passed as usual~ Mrs Heng was not in school today, thus the Oral exams is postponed. After school, went for lunch with Annabelle, Ashlea, Eustacia, Minhui, Wanyi and Weiting. Chatted at there for about an hour before heading home. I <3333 Fiesta cheesecake! Lols, I was being random. Anyway, went to IMM to meet my parents. Till here then...

Do you ever know how it felt to be ignored and being invisible in all of your eyes? Perhaps to all of you, this is just a joke. How would you ever understand me? I felt as if I am just a doll, after being used, I will just be tossed onto the other side... Do you all even care for me? Do you all ever spare a thought for me? Why can't everything return back to the beginning to where it once was. I felt as if I didn't existed at all, nothing will ever be the same again... Do anyone cared geniunely for me? I felt lonely and left out at times. Whenever, I walked alone at the back, I always hoped that someone will turn and notice me. I hoped that someone will approach me... I don't want to be alone. Instead, I saw all of you guys walking together, leaving me alone behind. I never opened my mouth to complain about anything. Just because, I kept myself silent, it doesn't mean that I am not in pain... Do you ever know what am I thinking of? My heart hurts, whenever I was being left out... How I wish that someone will eventually notice me. I am not at the front, I am just another ordinary girl who was at the back... As time passes by, you all might toss me aside, however, I will always be by your side to help you.

Tuesday~ Another few days passed by... Haix, somehow I am worried for all my friends in my surroundings, they seems to be in trouble and yet I couldn't help them ): OMG! It's English oral examination tomorrow, it feels as if yesterday when I was promoted to Sec 2 O: Wishing everyone good luck for tomorrow's oral exam (: Jiayous! I am feeling tired right now zzz... Till here then!

Saturday~ Just another random day passed by...

Am I being too emotional? I really don't know why... Just feel like crying, tears flowed down like an open tap, it just won't stop. Everything just doesn't seems to be on the right track. I felt as if I am just a living dead, I don't even understand the meaning behind my actions. I can no longer understand myself. Perhaps, everything will just be a dream... No matter how many times I told myself to be strong, it just won't get into my mind. Why do I even cry? I don't even know the reasons behind it... Perhaps it is time to stop, I will just have to face it bravely. Face it like I would back then......

Friday~ Yipee!! I finally completed my e-learning tasks~ Hahas, I am going crazy (: Woke up at 10.30am, the first thing that I did was to switch on my laptop. I love my Fiesta cheesecake <333 After finishing moodle, Jianshu suggested to have a visit to Annabelle's house. Having fun at her house, hugging the huge teddy bear. We ate a bowl of cookies n cream, Jianshu poured his coke into it, attempting to make ice-cream shake. Hahas, it turned at that it was quite delicious. At night, went to Jurong Point with Jianshu to buy more cheesecake and to have a look at his desired MacBook in nubox. Homed at 9.00pm

Thursday~ Outing with siao siao happy family(: Woke up at 9am , specially just for my homework. I still have 2 more to go~! Does anyone know how to make the brochure? I sat in front of my laptop for 5 hours just for that >< Reached Jurong Point at 1.15pm, met Wei Kiat and Xinyi at GV. We were intending to watch "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen" Seriously, can I ever get tired of that movie? The answer will be no, I love that movie! We went to McDonalds for lunch. In the end, my fries ended up in Wei Kiat's stomach, since I couldn't finish it xD Annabelle came late though. Went up to the cinema immediately after lunch. I am freezing, frozen into ice cube while watching the movie. After movie, walked randomly around, then saw Wei Lun, Nelson, Huangyu, Zhengyang etc. While taking photo, Belle made me chase her around, can't catch my breath, almost fainted. Lalala, I know I have a terribly low stamina. Shopped around Harris for books with Annabelle. Homed at 10.20pm.

Happy 16th birthday, Nelson~! (:

F-elicia~! ♥10:30:00 PM.

Wednesday~ Last day of PMP interview... Ohmygod, I can't believe I overslept today, woke up at 1.30pm in the afternoon-.- Luckily that I do not have to attend PMP interview. Initially, I am supposed to be the bouncer for the interview today. Hahas, bouncing here and there~! But, last night was told by Cherubim that they had enough manpower, so that I was not needed to turn up for the interview today. I actually wanted to go, but I overslept!! Can't believe it T.T I guessed that I was too tired. Congratulations to all Sec 1 nominees, you guys had successfully gone through the PMP interview! Through my time being one of the interviewers yesterday, all of you did try your best to provide us with satisficable responses. *Applause* Now, it is the time for you all to wait for the results that you are anticipating. You guys had done well, good job (: Wishing all of you good luck!

Hours and minutes just passed randomly. Yay, I had almost completed my e-learning assignments, 3 more to go! Life is as boring as usual, especially when you are in the state of being bookless T.T Any recommendation?! I am in serious need for books >< I managed to complete all my quizzes in the afternoon (: All I left now, is just some of the major tasks... Jiayous! I have to complete all my tasks today at all costs x) Looking forward to the trip tomorrow with Wei Kiat, Annabelle and Xinyi...

Everyone, please do kindly take care of yourselves, especially when H1N1 is spreading fast in Singapore! See you guys back in school :)

Woke up at 8.40am today for the Mathematics quiz. At 9am, we found out that it is shifted to tomorrow T.T I am going to have panda eyes after holidays~ I was doing moodle with Annabelle, Wei Kiat and Xinyi online. Totally lost my concentration when I was laughing like hell on the conversation. Received message from Weiting that have to return to school for briefing. I reached school at 12.20pm, and realized that I was a blur sotong~ Hahas, anyways in the end, became an interviewer for the PMP interview. I miss the atmosphere (: Having fun with Rebecca, Cherubim, Wen Xuan, Ying Chong, Anna, Amanda and Kelly. Congrats for all Sec 1s who came for the interview, you guys had done a great job! Jiayous and keep up the good work~! Even though some of you were tense, nervous, hesistant whereas some of the others were confident and determined. Hahas, nevertheless, you guys had done well, take it as a memorable experience that you have gained(: Currently, I am doing my e-learning.... Everyone, good luck with it!

-Happy Youth Day'o9 to all of the youths in the whole wide world.

-For all those nominated sec 1s, good luck and jiayous for your interview tomorrow(: There's no need for you guys to be afraid or nervous, you just have to be yourself when you enter the room. Jiayous! You should not have any regrets, if you had truly tried your best~

Woke up in the noon today. Well, at least it isn't that bad, cause I used to wake up at 1pm or 2. E-learning starts officially tomorrow, this is my last day for relaxation ): Chatted with Wei Kiat, Annabelle and Xinyi through the phone in the afternoon. The rest of my time, I am either reading, listening music or blog hopping~ I am in need of books right now!

Currently, I am still in clouds nine enjoying my weekends (: Hahas, woke up in the morning at around 11 am? Wow, it is considered as a miracle for me to not sleep later than 1pm. Ate a Choco Extico cake for my lovely breakfast, I am totally in love with cakes and ice-cream (even though that they did not provide me with anything other than fats x.x) Believe it or not, I sat in front of my laptop for a total of more than 8 hours today, I am completely a computer and book addictor. Day started with a normal routine of reading fanfictions, and watching movies. My parents and I ate a hawaiian pizza for lunch! Received a call from Kelly that I will be going back to school on Wednesday to help out with the PMP interview. For those whose interviews are scheduled on Wednesday, see you then (: ! Looking forward for those juniors to enter the council xD Everyone, e-learning is starting in just another day's time! Good luck and jiayous in order to submit your assignments before the designed deadlines. At the same time, please do not over-exert yourself, take care especially when H1N1 is spreading fast in Singapore! Till here then (:

Just came back after a long movie (((: "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen" directed by Michael Bay is great! It is very hilarious, since a long time that I laughed like a crazy girl (L.I.F.E camp which is about a month ago) I think today's post is perhaps the longest in my history? Hahas, went to the movie with my dad and Ah-Leong korkor. The entire movie lasted for about 3 hours. It is even nicer than any other movies that I had viewed this year. I will fully recommend this movie to the others, if you are looking for a movie which contains humor or suspense, do hurry up and rush to the cinema for this particular movie!

The next movie that I am anticipating, "Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince"! It will be in theaters in just about a week's time!! I can't wait to see that movie... New Moon of the Twilight Saga will be shown in Singapore in another... 5 months? That's too long for me ><>

It's Saturday~ The most anticipating day of my week(: I woke up in an early morning due to my father's horrendous ringtone (imagine that you woke up because of a chain of multiple gunshot xD) Yay! I will be watching "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen" today. Initially, we wanted to watch it as soon as it is in theaters, but it can't be help when the entire movie schedule is fully booked! Wow, it is the first time that I have to wait for a long time just for a movie... I had already completed the entire book the day before. Now, I had returned to the same situation of being book-less T.T

After reading 'Twilight' by Stephenie Meyer, I found that the rest of the books that I read wasn't as interesting as hers. Maybe, I shouldn't have read 'The Twilight Saga' so soon, if I remembered correctly, I completed the entire series within a week. I guessed it couldn't be helped since the storyline is so intriguing (: I am still in love with it... The next nice series of collection would be 'Night World' by Ljane Smith. The books are thick and the storyline are as nice as Twilight Saga. It managed to keep me captivated for a few days (for those who know me well enough, since I am hopless book-addict, the most that a book could catch my attention is probably only for a few hours, least 1-2 hours) Hahas, enough of my crapping~

Moving on, life is still the same for me. It is entirely revolved around my friends, school, SC, my family and last but not least, BOOKS! I have been doing nothing productive except for slacking, surfing the net and reading. Perhaps, it is plain boring for some of you, since that yours might be full of vibrant and bright colours...

How I wish that I could never grow up, if I did, I won't be facing all sorts of complicated problems, I would still be an innocent and naive child. No point escaping from the reality, if it is meant to be, I will face it. I promised myself that I will face all challenges and obstacles in my life, I will face it bravely with confidence and determination. I will not be a coward by running away and escaping. There is no such a word as 'escaping' in my life dictionary. Even if there was, I will now erase it. That is how life are meant for us.

Life is just like a training for us, before we meet the real challenge. Some of the others, prefered to believe that it is a dream, we are just like characters of it. Do you ever believe in reincarnation? That is equilvalant to when we are dead, we should be prepared to move on and proceed to the next dream. However, do you know that dreams are also weaved by us? We are the ones whom control what we all dreamed of. Since when was the last dream that you have? Do you still remember, that we are the ones who controls what we are doing in it? Perhaps, it is just like a drama or even a scene which was played in front of you. We are the one that have the ultimate control. Each of us are unique, we have our own decisions.

It is like I did not post on anything in regards of what I am doing today. The 'long' paragraphs above is just a reflection of mine. Read it if you want, you can also choose to skip over(: Lalala, I will post about my trip today, perhaps tomorrow or a few days later. By the way, next week is the start of e-learning. Everyone, good luck with it!

All of a sudden, I feel like going back to school. I still don't understand why though. Currently, I am anticipating for the next ushering session, and weekly duties after e-learning week. Rebecca is correct, the real reason we enjoy all of these duties and ushering sessions is because that we get to do it with our fellow councillors and friends, through that we get to know little details that we never noticed before about them. Also, through these we became more united and bonded. Hahas, but we also enjoy because we get to help the others. Last but not least, I am also anticipating Annabelle's birthday <3 I guessed that I also miss my friends especially besties~!

P.S: Fengyi and Poh Hsien, please do wait patiently for any futher instructions or information from the OTs. I am not sure if the interview is postponed or on going. If you do really have any queries, feel free to approach any seniors, do not be afraid, I am quite sure that they wouldn't mind to help you. Don't be worry, just be yourself when you go for the interview. You wouldn't have any regrets if you had truly tried your best (:

It's been another few days since I last update~
Lalala, as usual, seems kind of restless during class. Haix, I wondered what had happened to me? Even I don't understand myself, every little details seems to be affecting my emotions, causing it to change so quickly. One minute, I am hyper and crazy... A few hours later, I might be putting on a facade, laughing and joking on the outside but restless and tired inside. I wondered if I was just tired physically or mentally tired, sleep fairy seems to love me a lot. Haix~ Anyways, enough of self reflection.
Hahas(: Went to IMM just now, waited for my mum till 8pm at night, which meant that I wandered around the shopping mall for a total of 3 hours alone~ First experience of going out alone, it seems kind of lonely.Walking around aimlessly, listening to the sounds around me, watching the others walking and strolling in pairs or together as a family (not that I am jealous xD) Just.... feeling really empty inside my heart. The surroundings itself is enough to drive me crazy out of boredroom. Thanks to Annabelle for talking to me on phone, without it I think I would have seriously gone crazy. While wandering around, bought a book and sat at McDonalds patiently for about 1-2 hours. Within that time, already managed to complete 200 over pages (:
Moving on to my next focus. Congrats to those secondary 1 students who were nominated PMP (: Good luck and jiayous for the interview next week~! Finally, I <33333 HYSC~! Lols, I was being random, as I am nicknamed as a crazy girl, there's no excuse for not being random xD Anyway, loving HYSC is from the bottom of my heart~ Btw, from the facebook quiz which I took today, it is proved that I am 93% crazy and 99% innocent! Hahas(: 6th Student Council, all the way~!!

It's been a few days since I updated my blog (: School is not half as bad as I thought, been less busier these days due to H1N1. We were required to take temperature everyday, thus 1 hour cut off for lesson. There will be no school for Huayians next week because of e-learning, don't know to be happy or frustrated >< Happy as I do not have to wake up in the early morning, frustrated as I know that there will be a pile of homework waiting for me everyday~ I wonder what had happened to me these few days? Has sleep fairy cast a spell on me...? I feel sleepy everyday! I bettter work hard and strive for my best, EOY is nearing in just another few months time~

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