Monday, December 7, 2009
Just one last update before flying off away from Singapore. 2.58am, Monday; I should be sleeping or drifting off to dreamland by now, and yet I did not. I have spent a total of a hour and a half sitting in front of my laptop with my thoughts far away from reality. What am I thinking exactly? I cannot answer that question which I had directed to myself. My mind was sank with events which had happened throughout the year of 2009, the year which I had made numerous mistakes and faults. Perhaps, I am no longer the happy-go-lucky girl which I used to be until last year. I have grown and learnt through the mistakes which I had made. Everything that happened is due to our choice, the path or alternative route which we had chosen to follow. Hence, we had nothing to blame but ourselves. Occasionally, things are not seems like what they should have been. Destiny and fate did not control our lives, we are the one who was given a choice. Humans believed that our lives are laid out for us, we are puppets being controlled by the cruel hands of both destiny and fate. Whereas, some believed that our lives were already written. Certainly, you have heard the saying that, "We are the authors of our life story." We chose the way we want to live our lives. Everything depends on the path which we decided to step on. I am usually not a believer of fate, but I want to live it my way. Somehow, I can't. I am restricted, I am always being controlled. Whenever I was left alone, I do cry. I am in pain due to the emptiness in my heart. I do not know who to believe or to rely on. Friends, besties, cliques and family... These are the ones that are revolving in my life. I do love each and everyone of them in my own way. Being optimistic do help rather than being pessimistic. Looking at the brighter side is always joyful. Maybe you will find a rainbow emerging in the skies after the rain.
I am off for now and will only be updating after the 16th, do remember to leave a tag whenever you visit(:
F-elicia~! ♥2:57:00 AM.
